Samiam

I really enjoy this album. To be quite honest, I haven't listened to Samiam in a very long time.
You know there are those bands that strike you at moments in your life, and that's all you listen to, than you sort of just stop. Well, Samiam was one of them for me. I don't want to do that again.

I've had such a bad day. I cannot even begin to describe how stupid I feel and how much I overreact when I get my feelings hurt. I push people away, and retreat. Its horrible.

I'm staying in tonight and doing homework. Hoping I pull myself together before I get to see my best friend tomorrow.

Blacklisted

My favorite hardcore band for the past, what, 4 years has been Blacklisted. Last night my friend Dylan from Kentucky saw them in Nashville and sent me this:


Yeeaaaah! How awesome is that? Me! Burning Fight in Chicago!
I get to see Blacklisted on Friday! Stoked!

October 17th, Richmond Hardcore

Can you believe I was suppose to get married today? Wow, what a weird life that would have been. All I have to say is that I'm really glad I'm single.
Okay, on to what matters: Hardcore

Last night


Dead End Path It was only their 3rd show and they represented Wilkes Barre hardcore really well. They had limited tapes and shirts. Neither of which I got because I couldn't get to the merch tables. Hopefully, they will send me some. You can still download their demo FOR FREE online, right here. Don't sleep on this band. They should be coming back to Richmond in December!

Naysayer had a surprise set because War Hungry was late. Always a pleasure seeing Naysayer. They played like 4 songs. Crowd looked confused because they introduced themselves as War Hungry. They have a 7" out on Reaper. Richmond hardcore is on top.

Bracewar played a good set. I can't remember a bad time I've seen Bracewar though. I think their hype sort of died (not in these parts) but the songs from their new 7" are good. I don't know what the deal is with buying it. I think they said you could pick it up at the show. I thought I saw it at Vinyl Conflict I don't know. I'll see what I can find out about it post something more solid.

Cold World played before Floorpunch. I don't remember the last time I saw Cold World. It hasn't been that long or has it? Either way, I really like their newer stuff, and like Bracewar, they have progressed into a more mature sounding band. It blows my mind that people don't like their stuff after Ice Grills. I think if they heard Dedicated to Babies..first they wouldn't hype on Ice Grillz as much. I don't know if Cold World is still a hype band. I don't think their shirts go for as much nowadays but kids still go nuts and that's all that ever matters.

Floorpunch was good. This was my first time seeing them. They've done a hand full of "reunion" shows for whatever reason. I like Floorpunch. I liked them more when I was straightedge. If would have saw them in 2004/5 I would have been much more stoked. I use to listen to them daily but obviously that faded out. It was still awesome hearing "Washed Up at 18." I remember when I use to get so bummed when my friends sold out. I would listen to Floorpunch, Ten Yard Fight, and Champion.

Overall, great show! I met some new people, saw some faces I haven't seen in awhile, and saw some, dare I say, friends?

Oh, since we all know a lady bitch gotta eat I ate a decent "TAMAL" @ La Bamba (I need to clarify that this La Bamba is NO WHERE as good as La Bamba "Burritos as Big as Your Head" in Louisville).

Book DEAD END PATH in your city, by the way. They want to tour and play as many shows as possible. Email Myspace
mosh.

I've got my eye on you, I'm gonna bury you

I will be paying with quarters! Ohhhh, yes!

Tigers Jaw

Tigers Jaw

I don't know what to say. I'm in a terrible mood and this is what I'm listening to. It won't put you in a terrible mood though.

My first day of work is tomorrow and I can't sleep.

I have a love/hate relationship with Richmond.

Sushi, son!

One aspect of tonight was sushi time with Erika. Erika is my new friend in Richmond. She is pretty awesome. She has this awesome pug named Oden.
Anyways, she taught me how to make sushi. We were too lazy to cut them in pieces so we just ate sushi burritos. Really though, sushi burrito, it doesn't get any realer than that.
Disclaimer: I didn't bring my camera with me tonight so this was taken on my POS phone. I did take photos today of my friend Ashley's friend's new great dane puppy, Helio. I will post those tomorrow.

Not to mention tonight I went to one of the craziest shows I've been to in awhile. Louisville cannot hold a candle to Richmond's hardcore scene. An update will be made on this show tomorrow maybe.

At 11am I have an interview for a position as a Director of Enrichment programs at a small preschool. Today I had a follow up interview at The Primrose School of Atlee. I think the interview went well. She is calling me tomorrow to let me know.

I am broke. It would be cool to start working again.


Goodnight!
Oh & I love Trial so much. "TIMES WILL CHANGE BUT THE TRUTH IS THE SAME!"

ps.
I met Josh & Erika's friend tonight and I must say I've developed a little school girl crush on him. Josh says "He's got his grown man on." Ok, I'm done being silly.

For better or for worse...

I've decided on Richmond. If Richmond doesn't work out right away I can always go to my moms and save up and try again. I'm allowed to fuck up a few more times.

Richmond Vs Louisville

I cannot decide on what I want to do.
I love Louisville and it feels like home. I wish I could figure out what I want to do with my life. Why is this such a hard decision? Why can't I figure this out? I want someone to make the decision for me, but I know it's mine to make.
Either decision I feel like I'm fucking up my life. I will disappoint someone. I just feel so helpless & I know I'm not. I'm creating so much stress for myself by not just making a decision.

I cannot find a job here. I don't have an apartment. The only thing that is certain is school.
At least in Louisville I will get my job back, I think, and I will have an income. I don't have anywhere to live, yet, which is so stressful it makes me sick. I can go to school in Louisville, too. I just want to make the decision.
I haven't even really moved yet. All of my shit is still there. I have until like tomorrow morning to make a decision. I don't want to make the decision.

My mom is going to hate me if I decide to move back. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to disappoint her. I want to do what makes me happy and where I won't fail. Ugh. I just don't fucking know.

Save me from myself.