Photo Project

Recently I have noticed the lack of photos I've been taking lately. I bought this new camera as a present for myself with my tax returns and I have used it a handful of times. I decided a few days ago to start taking one picture a day and posting it on this here blog. Hopefully, this will inspire me to take more photos and stop being so damn lazy and letting precious jewels like this pass me by.

We will see how dedicated I am to this. Lately I let things go without even persuing them the way I use to. It is disappointing to notice this about myself. I am usually very motivated and dedicated to what I do.

Financial Aid

The Financial Aid process is ridiculous. They make it almost impossible to access things on their website. I understand that it is important to have all the correct tax information but when you tell me to "eletronically sign my name with pin" and I try to do this and you tell me my information isn't valid though I've redone it 4 times now, it just gets tiresome. I think the governments goal is to make this process so lengthy and time consuming (FRUSTRATING) that you give up and they don't have to give you any money for school.

College should be free, well, at least the first two years. Basic courses like math, sciences, english lit, and history should be free. You shouldn't have to pay $200 per credited hour to have a professor teach you things you should have been taught in high school. Thankfully folks like me need the courses as a refresher but I shouldn't have to pay for them. Make me pay for classes that are informative on my major.

My brain cannot grasp the constant need to suck everyone dry. I cannot afford school on my own. Hell, I can't even afford to live right now let alone shell out $200 for an algebra class!

Basically, I am hoping even though I messed up the financial aid on FASFA that the people at their office in Billings will accept the signature I sent in the mail and allow me enough money to go to school.

For better or for worse...

I've decided on Richmond. If Richmond doesn't work out right away I can always go to my moms and save up and try again. I'm allowed to fuck up a few more times.

Richmond Vs Louisville

I cannot decide on what I want to do.
I love Louisville and it feels like home. I wish I could figure out what I want to do with my life. Why is this such a hard decision? Why can't I figure this out? I want someone to make the decision for me, but I know it's mine to make.
Either decision I feel like I'm fucking up my life. I will disappoint someone. I just feel so helpless & I know I'm not. I'm creating so much stress for myself by not just making a decision.

I cannot find a job here. I don't have an apartment. The only thing that is certain is school.
At least in Louisville I will get my job back, I think, and I will have an income. I don't have anywhere to live, yet, which is so stressful it makes me sick. I can go to school in Louisville, too. I just want to make the decision.
I haven't even really moved yet. All of my shit is still there. I have until like tomorrow morning to make a decision. I don't want to make the decision.

My mom is going to hate me if I decide to move back. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to disappoint her. I want to do what makes me happy and where I won't fail. Ugh. I just don't fucking know.

Save me from myself.

Nursing

After much considering I think I want to go to school for nursing, a pediatric nurse to be exact. As much as I love teaching, its not a career that I can total depend on in the economy right now.

I'm heading out to J Sarg to talk to them about Financial Aid and what not.

Oh, and I think I'd go back to school for teaching once I finished for nursing.
Sounds like a plan.

Jessica Lea Mayfield

Jessica Lea Mayfield is one of my most recent musical interests. She has a folky/country/bluegrassy sound.It's just simply beautiful. Her songs are sad and gloomy. She put out an EP at 15, White Lies.

I really recommend her to those of you who like female vocalists and/or country/folk music.
Myspace
White Lies Download

I'm going to try to do this at least once a week.

Tehran

"Witnesses said there were no rallies in the capital on Sunday, a day after 10 people were reported to have died in clashes between police and protesters."

The protests that have been going on in Tehran have been intense.

"Protesting against lies and fraud is your right. In your protests continue to show restraint," a statement on his website said(Mr Mousavi).