Photo Project

Recently I have noticed the lack of photos I've been taking lately. I bought this new camera as a present for myself with my tax returns and I have used it a handful of times. I decided a few days ago to start taking one picture a day and posting it on this here blog. Hopefully, this will inspire me to take more photos and stop being so damn lazy and letting precious jewels like this pass me by.

We will see how dedicated I am to this. Lately I let things go without even persuing them the way I use to. It is disappointing to notice this about myself. I am usually very motivated and dedicated to what I do.

Financial Aid

The Financial Aid process is ridiculous. They make it almost impossible to access things on their website. I understand that it is important to have all the correct tax information but when you tell me to "eletronically sign my name with pin" and I try to do this and you tell me my information isn't valid though I've redone it 4 times now, it just gets tiresome. I think the governments goal is to make this process so lengthy and time consuming (FRUSTRATING) that you give up and they don't have to give you any money for school.

College should be free, well, at least the first two years. Basic courses like math, sciences, english lit, and history should be free. You shouldn't have to pay $200 per credited hour to have a professor teach you things you should have been taught in high school. Thankfully folks like me need the courses as a refresher but I shouldn't have to pay for them. Make me pay for classes that are informative on my major.

My brain cannot grasp the constant need to suck everyone dry. I cannot afford school on my own. Hell, I can't even afford to live right now let alone shell out $200 for an algebra class!

Basically, I am hoping even though I messed up the financial aid on FASFA that the people at their office in Billings will accept the signature I sent in the mail and allow me enough money to go to school.

For better or for worse...

I've decided on Richmond. If Richmond doesn't work out right away I can always go to my moms and save up and try again. I'm allowed to fuck up a few more times.

Richmond Vs Louisville

I cannot decide on what I want to do.
I love Louisville and it feels like home. I wish I could figure out what I want to do with my life. Why is this such a hard decision? Why can't I figure this out? I want someone to make the decision for me, but I know it's mine to make.
Either decision I feel like I'm fucking up my life. I will disappoint someone. I just feel so helpless & I know I'm not. I'm creating so much stress for myself by not just making a decision.

I cannot find a job here. I don't have an apartment. The only thing that is certain is school.
At least in Louisville I will get my job back, I think, and I will have an income. I don't have anywhere to live, yet, which is so stressful it makes me sick. I can go to school in Louisville, too. I just want to make the decision.
I haven't even really moved yet. All of my shit is still there. I have until like tomorrow morning to make a decision. I don't want to make the decision.

My mom is going to hate me if I decide to move back. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to disappoint her. I want to do what makes me happy and where I won't fail. Ugh. I just don't fucking know.

Save me from myself.

Nursing

After much considering I think I want to go to school for nursing, a pediatric nurse to be exact. As much as I love teaching, its not a career that I can total depend on in the economy right now.

I'm heading out to J Sarg to talk to them about Financial Aid and what not.

Oh, and I think I'd go back to school for teaching once I finished for nursing.
Sounds like a plan.

Jessica Lea Mayfield

Jessica Lea Mayfield is one of my most recent musical interests. She has a folky/country/bluegrassy sound.It's just simply beautiful. Her songs are sad and gloomy. She put out an EP at 15, White Lies.

I really recommend her to those of you who like female vocalists and/or country/folk music.
Myspace
White Lies Download

I'm going to try to do this at least once a week.

Tehran

"Witnesses said there were no rallies in the capital on Sunday, a day after 10 people were reported to have died in clashes between police and protesters."

The protests that have been going on in Tehran have been intense.

"Protesting against lies and fraud is your right. In your protests continue to show restraint," a statement on his website said(Mr Mousavi).

US girl 'burnt in voodoo ritual'

New York prosecutors have charged a woman with setting alight her six-year-old daughter in a voodoo rite that left the child with life-threatening burns.

Lawyers say Marie Lauradin, 29, sent her daughter to bed after the ritual with serious burns on 25% of her body.

The girl was taken to hospital the next day, where doctors put her into a drug-induced coma. She has since been placed in foster care.

Ms Lauradin denies charges of assault and endangering the welfare of a child.

Defence lawyer Jeff Cohen said the girl was Ms Lauradin's only child and she would not have hurt her.

Prosecutors say she poured rum over the child during a Haitian voodoo practice known as Loa.

"The child's mother is alleged to have intentionally poured an accelerant over her young daughter's body, causing her to be engulfed in flames," said Queens District Attorney Richard Brown.

If convicted, Ms Lauradin faces up to 25 years in jail.

The girl's grandmother is also alleged to have taken part in the ritual and faces a separate trial.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/8108540.stm


People still practice voodoo? I gotta read more.

French baby-killing mother jailed

A French woman who admitted killing three of her own babies and hiding two of them in a freezer has been sentenced to eight years in jail.

Veronique Courjault secretly gave birth and then killed two babies at her expatriate home in South Korea before putting their bodies in the freezer.

She admitted killing another child in France in 1999.

The court in Tours, central France, rejected the argument that she had been suffering from "pregnancy denial".

Mrs Courjault was quite heavily built and her husband, Jean-Louis, has said he was unaware she was pregnant.

He has been cleared of any involvement.

He has steadfastly stood by his wife, visiting her regularly in prison, where she has spent three years in pre-trial detention.

'No relationship'

Mrs Courjault wept as she testified to the court on Wednesday.

"I killed my children," she said, according to AP news agency. "I was conscious of being pregnant, but not of being pregnant with babies," she added, saying she knew it sounded "absurd".

She said she did not consciously set out to hide the pregnancies.

"It was my body that blocked" the pregnancies, she said. "No relationship with the babies developed."

Mrs Courjault had faced life in prison, and her husband praised the relatively light sentence she received.

It "will allow us to rebuild, to make out the light at the end of the tunnel", he said.

Mrs Courjault initially denied any connection to the bodies discovered in the freezer by her husband in 2006.

But when DNA analysis proved the Courjaults were the babies' natural parents, she admitted suffocating the two infants in Korea in 2002 and 2003.

She also confessed to killing a third baby, born in secret in France in 1999, and burning its body in a fireplace.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/8108317.stm



Humanity is foul. Eight years for 3 babies. That is beyond ridiculous. She is fully function except she couldn't grasp the concept of being pregnant, THREE TIMES? Okay.